Originally published at Honest Lies. Comment here or there.

The title is ridiculously long. I am in this kind of “fuck everything I don’t care” kind of mood- so if it reflects in my post I apologise in advance.

It started with this tweet, inspired by a sudden moment where I thought that maybe I missed being a Jpop fangirl, missed Jpop in general. I listen to mostly Kpop now, with a little bit of Cpop and visual kei. Visual kei doesn’t count as Jpop really (obviously). Not like how I used to follow the mainstream. Now I can’t quite be fucked keeping up with what everyone else seems to like (from what I read- because all music blogs review the same artist. Seriously), and really it actually kind of bores me outside of the occasional scandal (Erika Sawajiri anyone?) and Arashi- because Arashi are awesome and I really need to hurry up and watch more of their shows (what I’ve seen has been fun, like a more high budget, shorter and to the point Korean show…though we all know Korean shows get inspiration from Japan in the first place).

That doesn’t mean I hate Jpop or anything. Just got bored. Now I find myself bored, or rather in a comfortable routine with Kpop I feel I want to get back into it. I want to feel excited about music again, not know what comes next after the second chorus. I’m always listening to the same old thing, and yes it is partly my mp3 player is broken and will only play those songs but it’s also because I come home and then listen to the same damn thing.

Hence I’m now sitting here with my headphones on blasting all the things I used to listen to. Going right back to TommyHeavenly6, then Miyavi, MIRANOSAND, LAST ALLIANCE, KAT-TUN (too many capitals. why the funky way of writing band names Japanese music industry? it kills) and even Hamasaki Ayumi and Suzuki Ami. TommyHeavenly6 was one of my first, and is still a favourite. I just stopped listening to her, moved on so to speak. Listening to her makes me feel 14 again (I feel so old already even though I’ve probably not grown up much since then). MIRANOSAND and LAST ALLIANCE are as incredible as always, and so is Miyavi. KAT TUN is kind of awful but I love them anyway. Hamasaki Ayumi I adore, her old stuff that is. I couldn’t listen to her for a while (months) after the shit she’s been putting out lately (and man how awful she looks on the covers. she’s always been a bit tacky and fake but she can do better than summer days OK? Her new single covers are hideous too :/). This is only the second time I’ve put on her music, when I used to listen to it constantly. I’m enjoying it, and think I’ve gotten over the fact she’s changed and become terrible. Suzuki Ami really isn’t as great as I once thought, though free free remains a great song. I will be trying out various other artists if this other download ever finishes (it doesn’t seem like it will). I do have some un-zipped files which I may touch with a 10 foot pole and hope for the best.

I have nothing much else to do, at least I don’t think I do. All I think I’ve got is a bit of homework for later but otherwise read most of the fanfic I want to read, not much on youtube I want to watch and can’t be bothered shifting through fandom on livejournal (will regret this when I have 500+ entries to go through tomorrow but for now I don’t care-e-e-e-e-e).

Its fun just sitting here doing nothing, thinking of nothing in particular and listening to the things I’d allowed myself to forget. Listening again doesn’t make me feel sad or start wallowing in ~oh so angsty~ past instead I just feel kind of… like I’m 14 (13?) again and just getting into it all again. I’ve been in Jpop, and even Kpop long enough to become cynical about it. It kind of ruins the fun in a way.

It feels good, and more familiar to listen to Japanese for some reason, too. I really love that language, even if I still can’t be bothered to get back in to learning it. Not that I’ve ever made much progress, the farthest I got was to learn all the hiragana then go onto Katakana, get stuck and stop completly.

I have a short attention span, when it comes to anything. I’m really bad at dedicating myself (long term) to things, and it shows in many things, like how little I progressed in learning Japanese and in my music listening habits. I go through long stints of listening to mainly one language- for a while it’s been Korean, now I’m probably shifting through to focus on Japanese for a bit (could be just today, could be weeks to come) then maybe I’ll rediscover how awesome Golf+Mike are and go on a Thai binge.

I’m just like that.

(random entry is random and filled with too many brackets and is slightly incoherent. I’m really out of it right now sorry XD)